I Had a Dream

Word is that you'll see a flashback of what has been happening in your life, like in a slideshow or like a film itself, before you die. But, what if what I see is more than just that? Does that mean I'll die sooner or something? I hope not :)

I was back home this evening, feeling tired. So I decided to take a nap. I had a dream, that I don't seem to remember right now. All I can remember is, they were things that are happening in my life right now, things that might happen and things that are just beyond my imagination. And guess what? They were all faster than a bullet train. If I have to put it in a quantitative method, it's gonna be probably 50x the normal speed.

Then, all of a sudden, I woke up, like eyes wide opened. I don't seem to remember a thing in that dream, AT ALL. Not forgetting, my heart was pumping very, very fast, like having a high adrenaline rush. It was beating so fast that I felt rather painful.

I was reminded by Ee Ling this morning, while having breakfast with her@Delifrance. She asked me if there is a time that I will ever feel tired of being hyper and fast-paced all the time. Of course I do, or else I'd be a psycho, but it just comes rarely. But that was what I felt at the moment I woke up. It made me ponder and think again of the reasons that I'm doing what I've been doing. Do I do it for the sake of doing, or is there a deeper meaning within or maybe it's just me thinking too much? I don't know.

Then, something popped up, a verse:
Psalm 46:10 Be still and know that I am God

and then, I was reminded of this song:

It inspires me even more~

Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

I guess it's about time I give God full ownership over my life. I think I learnt something from Ee Ling, to see things in a different dimension. I'm that kinda person who does now get upset easily, but I do get upset, it's all random. I guess because I seldom face a lot of mishaps in life, so I'd probably taken God for granted in some ways and start to rely on my own strength and abilities. And, even when I'm praising and worshipping God for all the good things in life, I don't seem to allow God to reply to me.

Note-to-self: Remember to read the Bible and pray every day.

Just Need to Do It

I used to learn the piano when I was really young and I got lazy halfway through it because I just hate taking time to practise. It's like I wanna master it but I don't wanna practice. I remember I once slept on the piano halfway practising. Yes, that was how lazy I was. And, I was about to sit for the Grade 1 test and end up dropping out before it. You know, if I persisted, I would probably end up being a very good piano player. *sighs*

So, approximately 1 year ago, I was all gung ho to pick up guitar as an instrument. I heard it is the easiest instrument to pick up. To cut the whole story short, I had 2 guitar teachers, 2 of which whom stopped teaching me because they gave up hope on me they were too busy in their own studies and life and also because I was lazy.

So the whole lesson thing finally ended last semester. I thought I could continue learning this semester but Andrew entered Year 1 and I'm taking 5 subjects with all the other work, so we are respectively BUSY, BUSY, BUSY. I don't really see any progress, though, because all I know is 5 chords, the G, C, D and Em. I can't even play a proper song because I don't really know strumming.

I mean, I know the patterns but I don't know which kind is for which song. All I heard was, "this is based on your creativity. You need to try it out yourself...". Being the self-conscious and lack of self confidence me, I always ask myself "What if it doesn't sound nice? People will laugh at my ignorance". I guess that's why I'm still not progressing. Not forgetting the fact that I am too lazy busy to practise.

Right now, I feel that I have neglected my Farida for a long long time. I don't even touch it as often now that I don't have lessons. I seriously want to learn this instrument and I need to be committed in practising like every day, even if it's 5 minutes a day. Sorry Farida! You still look as pretty as usual. I promise I'll "touch your body" more often and we'll never say "bye bye" because "we belong together".

Readers, meet Farida:

It's Good to Have Unexpectancy At Times

It's always the unexpected that brings out the best blessings outta nowhere. Just look at this beautiful Sunday where there were supposed to be a meet up with Mel and Jolene for lunch and Starbucks and also an evening movies with some church mates of which I haven't spent any time at all with them ever. I was really looking forward to that, and it's after all a movie which the world says it's too awesome to miss it. Anyway, it's Transformers 2. I ain't really a fan of these kinda Sci-Fi movies. First off, there's nothing to comment about acting because they are all robots. Plus, it's Shia Labeouf and Megan Fox, nothing really worth seeing.

So, there I went, realizing the wallet-killing parking rates at Pavilion, but still parked 'coz I've got no choice. Upon reaching, I received a call from Mel who happens to be part of the movie plan which I wasn't aware of. I was overjoyed. We were just saying that we aren't really fans of these kinda movies. We seem to really like Chick Flicks and I agree with what she says, at least it's something about life rather than robots flying around. We should just go watch movies together.

We had like 20 over people coming to watch together and normally these things are difficult to organize especially when the movie is such a big hit. Apparently, they lack a ticket for another person. So being kind people, we gave up our tickets and carried on with our original lunch plan, transferring it to dinner time and then my all time favourite, Starbucks. Despite being sick, I still ordered my usual.

Anyway, the catching up session was really fun. You know, those sharing on our respective lives and also "interesting" facts about people. Haha. I'm still laughing at the things I heard, they're simply hillarious. Not forgetting the Starbucks waiter whom she thinks was hitting on me. His name is Alvin, NO, I'm not interested, Mel. It's really inspiring to hear about Mel's life, seriously. I find it so exciting every time I hear about her new plans and things that are going on. I feel that I haven't been sharing enough about myself to her anyway, maybe because my life's just too boring. So, I've got nothing much to talk about.

There you go! A coincidental unexpectancy. Although the opportunity cost was to give up a good time with the crazy bunch of church friends, it's just pure blessing to enjoy a good talk, a good, laugh, good coffee, "interesting" encounter and also a life-learning sharing session which inspires me thoroughly, with a sister whom I respect and adore. Oh, I miss those days of LG. And I quote from Mel's Twitter page, "melalyn@KelvinKM Y'know what's better than Transformers2? Not watching it! Had an unplanned great time with Kelvin! Beat that, robots and man chick". It's so funny if you know what it means.

Prom Night 2009 - Prelude

...the "beforemath"

The night's finally here. Here's a little teaser on what I'm gonna be wearing after much contemplation:

The Look

Presenting:

Kelvin, dressed in a sleek vest, with an Esprit full-length shirt underneath accompanied with a slim brown tie. Clad in a greyish Esprit slacks together with a pair of Timberland shoes. However, there are questions on whether he should be wearing the grey Esprit slacks and the pair of Timberland. Anyway, it still looks good on him, going along with the tone of his skin.

The Day
Okay, let's get away from vanity (I can't help it, it's in me). Well, the event itself was nothing special. It's like any other dress-up formal parties, with performances and yes, the theme is Hollywood, but nothing like it. So it's not exactly worthy of my post but I'll still do it.

It is the day where:

the girls get to dress up like birds supreme~

It is the day where:

I found my long lost brother~

If it were not for:

these people, I would've been bored to death.
We are so not bored of doing liong poses~

Not forgetting, it is the day where:

eating watermelon is of sheer bliss~

That's prom!

Why are you so obsessed with me?

Finally, a new song from Memoirs of An Imperfect Angel. This special single is specially made for Eminem, the idiot. It's definitely something different from Mariah. It's urban, it's fun, it's catchy but not exactly the Mariah-fied songs. But I being biased still love it.

Nice cover art. Looking hot as ever!

"Why are you so obsessed with me?" is my new tagline because she said it in such a convincing way. Mariah said there will be BIG ballads, Perez (yes, I follow Mariah on Twitter). You be patient okay?

Can't wait.

Just A Reminder

Not many singers are capable of capturing my heart for their singing but there's this one and only singer and I believe most of you would actually know who she is. In my whole 20 years of life, I've gone past being fans for one singer after another and I would abandon them after awhile. She's the only one that I am still loyal to and she never fails to capture my heart every time she sings. She's none other than the awesomest singer alive - Mariah Carey.

Watching these few videos just reminded me of how great, sweet, powerful, awesome, impactful - and it goes on and on - her voice is.

It's even more heart-melting in 3:40. She obviously sang this better than
Diana Ross (without bias)

I think people just went to see her sing. Like whenever she hits those great notes effortlessly, people will clap and cheer.

When I watched these 2 videos, I just questioned myself how could someone that talented be possibly living in this world. Oh, if only I know her like personally. Maybe I should work towards that, in my dreams. Anyway, can't wait for her new album releasing this September and her new single this coming Tuesday.